This week, out of nowhere, the following phrase popped up: Grown-ups who for whatever reason were quiet as a kid: write your BOOK, you have so much to share with the world. Same goes for me. I will do so when the time is ripe or when I feel I can grasp that momentum.
For now I would like to share tiny stories with you.
This week is Spring holidays and most of the week I’m with my kids doing all kinds of fun stuff. Work is also a part of this week. Mourning as well ánd processing trauma’s. But let’s live the unwinding and recharging part first. I’m a great fan of Mary Poppins and psyched about the new release. I’ve seen the original version a coupe of times with my daughter which absolutely dazzled her imagination. The sequel was amazingly magical. We’ve seen it together with a friend of hers.
Parallel to this my thoughts go to my uncle who is dying. He finds himself in the last stage. Last weekend I went up and down two times to where he resides. During the first visit I only meditated for him. I wanted to support him with words, but I couldn’t.
The second trip was spontaneous, because suddenly I realized what I wanted to share with him to support his passing. And this was damn hard. It was hard to see him suffer. For the first five minutes I held his arm and I couldn’t say a thing. A very nice lady, a volunteer came in the room and said she was there for me if I needed her.
I made use of this opportunity and sat down with her for a few minutes in the hallway. She said: “It’s normal. It’s a lot to take in and when you get emotional, words leave.”
When I went back in I knew exactly what to say. This was the first time that I experienced the passing of a loved one in such a conscious way. I was able to say goodbye in my own way. Next to the words I shared I meditated and communicated with him through the images of memories I have of him. More and more details appeared in the images and the inner smile I felt appeared on my face. When I left I told him I would go home and that he would too.
He passed away on Wednesday 27th of March at 7.02am. Thank you for having been in my life dear uncle.
Photo by @ouxu